So, What Am I?

Over the next few days I'll be emailing out my onoging graphic design portfolio to various companys and freelances. I wasn't too overlly fussed about it at first letting my pesemism get in the way of nerves. It wasn't until I recieved the first email back did my nerves start to kick in. You know that awful feeling in the pit of your stomach and the breathlessness? Yup, got that from an email.

And it wasn't bad advice really. It did make me frown a little as I thought about it's relavantness.

I wont say who the company/designer was but he had these words for me: "the first thing that springs to mind is that I was slightly confused about weather you are an illustrator or a graphic designer.

Although I know plenty of graphic designers that do illustration and plenty of illustrators that do graphic design, they tend to only market themselves as one or the other. So my advice to you is decide which you want to do as your main job/career and concentrate on that."

Sound advice, but what to make of it? I took graphic design because that had always been my pasion. (As bad as my graphic design has been in the past.) I was ok at art and all that but I was never out standing. It's only the last few years that I've really started to enjoy my illustration work but along side Grpahic Design. And I think to myself, am I doing somthing wrong or is it just a technicallity. Should I have maybe weeded out a few pages on my portfoio (say the last page at the back labbled; illustrations?) Does it need re-jiggling for the lack of a better word?

I'm still learning. That's why I'm on a graphic design course and will be for another year. My fear is leaving university with an ok degree but no job. Having to go back to a town I really don't like with no idea for the furture.

This is somthing I really want to do and no ammount of stress or temper tantrums at 3am are going to stop me from making somthing of myself.